old love.

i remember seeing you for the first time in forever,
something inside of me wanted you so badly 
& by the way you would look at me, I could tell you wanted me too.
    eventually we fell in love,
but you were too scared of what others would say; 
so you hid our love, 
like we were nothing 
    you pretended to be someone else in front of your friends, but I knew who you really were
you were my happiness;
I've never felt what we had before 
but I wasn't sure anymore 
    so I started to walk away but you told me not to go
you grabbed my hand & kissed me
I pushed you away in confusion, 
I felt lost in that moment;
I asked you if this is what you wanted, to not be free because you were too scared to show your love for me? 
cause If so please just let me go,
he looked me right in the eyes & said,
what me & you have makes me free
    and I believed him,
what him I had was beautiful;
but we weren't infinite,
we are just a secret from the past,
& I guess that's all we'll ever be.