Once Again I'm In A Losing Battle

 October.20.2003
 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

Once again I'm in a losing battle
Lost with no place to hide
As I walk I feel my bones rattle
Once again my heart has died
These thoughts to stop I've tried

Day and night I just go on crying
I have no more strength
Just let me go on dying
Once again to myself I fight
To myself I keep lying
This battle of mine is so long in length

Truth is no one is out there 
Who will for me go that extra mile
No one for me to care
I just want this frown to go away
So I can smile 
But nothing nice people can say

To show I mean something
To let me know they hear
But It's just games they play
Being alone is my biggest fear
Hurt is what I feel everyday

God is so unfair
What is left is hatered
To my heart you bring
A lasting tear

No one with me 
Wants to forever be by my side
No one wants to stay
When they see me they turn around to hide
With me they don't want to be 

I must remain alone
Till my dying day
And my heart
It turned back to stone
No more do I care
What people have to say
Because getting close to me will anyone dare

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