Only You.

I hope you’re reading this, cause word of mouth. By the time you get it I’ve bled out. First my energy I spent on you now the blood I’m wasting cutting you out my life. It’s all drained. I stood here and told you my side and when things didn’t add up I explained. The first time we broke up I hid my feelings cause I knew I’d be hurting myself. So yes I did flirt and a situation came up I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t think clearly enough to not want to have sex with anyone else. I didn’t go through with it cause each time I’ve had opportunities to I couldn’t. But you’ll just state the fact that I wanted to anyway and for that I am sorry. When we broke up this time I cried tears of not joy but sadness cause we could not make it work. I tried to my best for you you wanted flowers I couldn’t get them but I made sure to find another way to make you happy. I guess it wasn’t enough. I did some things that would hurt you but free myself only cause I felt trapped by you. It was that way cause I loved you and was willing to do anything for you. I posted things that were out of the way of you but you took it as they aimed at you. As if I was choosing to red dot you. But I never held the gun. There was only you. You were the one I couldn’t let go til I did and things got better then harder and harder then you stopped talking to me. I was upset cause I still loved you. I still do now. I’m not perfect but I did what I can to keep you happy. To keep you smiling, laughing, pleasured, hell I saw you as everything you saw me as. I just couldn’t tell you cause I hate wanted to talk about the future then it never comes. I have no one now by the way. But you do, see? Someone wants you more than anyone would want me. You’re desirable, I’m not. Im always angry, always sad, and always lonely. No goodnight texts, no Good morning texts, no one to bother me. I hate starting over. Cause there was really only you. No one could compare really no body was as consistent . No one would ever come see me i would always go to them. No one would come over and make my night better like you do. But I guess it’s something I have to deal with now. This is what I have to deal with since I had only you.