Out Loud (My Tongue and Yours)

I can’t sit still.

No.

Really.

The stillness aches more
Than the constant movement my heart
And my head both move at
The speed of light they
Move so fast even I have
Trouble keeping up.  Voices.

The voices talk so fast they are
Inaudible most days they say
Everything and nothing all at
Once. Silence.
Silence makes my ears ring it makes me
So damn uncomfortable that
Sometimes I talk out loud to
Absolutely no one at all just so
I can hear something
The problem with
Talking is talking
Is for people who
Know how to talk meanwhile
I trip over my own tongue literally
Always like I
Forget it’s even there until
You kiss me

I digress this
Isn’t about you this
Is about me
But I just need to say this-
Out loud
To absolutely no one at all-
When you’re not around I forget
How to breathe involuntary
Reflexes are no longer
Involuntary except
For loving you (you give me
No choice)

And there I go again I’m
Rambling on about you
Out loud to myself of
Course (always to myself)
It is the hardest thing to say
Out loud to you
Especially when I can’t
Stop kissing you kissing you makes
The stillness and the
Silence bearable I may not
Remember how to talk but I do

I do remember how to breathe