Outwardly moved on

Many yrs passed, passed us so gracefully 
For if I knew what I know now-I'd disagree, 
Looking back, love & time were rationed so thinly 
And settled in love with family wholly,not meant to be, 
I long to feel maybe,the warm touch of someone special 
And now you do, always wished that it was me, 
For many years I dream,wished you regret & return 
In my,together first love with alacrity, 
I know my heart,was given to you in whole it seems 
To leave thoughts,memories return of you in the past, 
Continously again, cautiously opening my heart to an other 
Scared to love & lose, hopefully commit my heart to the last, 
Scars & memories,falling stars of many I wished upon 
I hid the tears I shed, all those who left me behind, 
Outwardly I've moved on,for my smile is my inner mask
The future I wish you well, always where life does find, 
My chances of true love, went by me so readily 
Didn't help with childhood days watching violence & hurt, 
When knowledge came & I was older, I missed my flight 
All the years of take, false love along with my shirt
If I learnt a lesson regarding love,& the time game
Turning my head for a glance of shadows, & what has been, 
I've lost those who have ever, meant something deep down 
Hope for the second chance when I die, after all I have seen, 
Memories & some laughter falling stars wander their path
The already cast journey, layed forward in one's sight, 
The poetry of our future,is similar to a love story 
Are we outwardly moved on, with realism & light.