Over welmed

I sit here as this familiar feeling comes flooding back
This loss that is over welming this feeling that I wish would stay gone
I knew this feeling when is started one I have felt so many times
I sat and I cried broke a chair and screamed at the world
But after it all this familiar feeling is yet to be gone
Years have went bye since I've seen your face heard your voice 
But it doesnt make this over welming loss any easier
I scream I yell I cry as I wish I could have said good bye 

Got a call Yesterday evening from my grandmother that my great uncle died he has been sick with cancer since before I was 9 now I am 18 but I never knew he had cancer a few months ago he had a stroke took away his speach and mobility he had told my cousin all he was waiting for before he died was to see his last granchild born my third counsin was born sunday morning my uncle died monday morning after seeing his grandson  last year I lost three people within days of each other I wrote this poem because writing is the only way I know to express my pain anymore