Overwhelmed with anxiety

Yeah I get lonely
But I have friends online
Their the only ones I have
For such a long time
I suffer with anxiety
My heart starts to race
When I talk with people
Doing a face to face
Suddenly filled with energy
My body I rock and shake
I'm trimbling inside
It's just too much to take
My palms gets sweaty
My chest fills with pain
I start feeling lightheaded 
I question if  I'm going insane
I try walking it off
I try to just calm down
But nothing seems to work
When other people I'm around
I suffer if I eat at restaurants
While shopping at a store
Unless I'm safe at home
My anxiety is my tormentor
Family and my few friends
Try forcing me to go out
I can't get them to understand
What this anxiety is about
It's not an excuse
It's not that I don't want to try
But when I'm around others
I'm so nervous I think I will die
Some call it panic attacks
Some just call it nerves
I just know it's real
And I can't put it into words
I've learned to cope
Minimize my reactions
I stay by myself, 
Have only a few interactions
With my friends online
I can finally feel free
I can hide at home
Safe with my anxiety
Written by Angela Hutcherson-Jenkins