Own up to it

I am not taking total blame for this!
We are both involved in the act.
We are not teenagers in the backseat.
Nor did I treat you like a whore.
I did not leave like a bandit
Who ran off with his prize
Nor did I act like I was ashamed.

We are well aware of what was done.
That was the one thing God gave us.
We had a right to choose.
We did try to stop ourselves
But we kept on going
Back to that place we used to go.

Lost in a sensual nirvana
That only lovers are familiar with
Where the familiar is like 
Exploring some kind of uncharted territory.
That only the bold dare to travel.

We continued further down the rabbit hole
For the moment, everything that happened before
Vanished to the wayside until We had to return.

Back to this shattered mess we created.
Leaving things more uncertain than before.
Back to being unable to handle our feelings.
And letting things be a chaotic mess.

It is true what is said of
The female of The species
She is definitely deadlier than the male.
She can also go from being gentle
To frigid within a moment's notice.

But everything felt so unilateral
Everything was now a land of confusion.
Back to a place that felt so alien and toxic
A place where I felt like I did something wrong.

As much as you don't want to admit it.
You're just as guilty as me.
For how that night went.
Just like you tell me, own up to it.
It wasn't that you couldn't stop me.
You didn't want to stop me.

I take responsibility for my actions.
I could have just done nothing.            
I allowed myself to get enveloped
By the emotions we still have.
Does that make me wrong?
Does that make you wrong?

We did not stop ourselves.
There were many chances.
Don't put it all on me!!
Because it takes two to tango.
And we did a number on the Dance Floor

The only thing I am asking.
Is not to be with me right now!!!
And by that I mean.
This person you are right now.
To be very honest,
She has caused me so much pain.
Sent me through an emotional hell!!!
She's not the woman I fell in love with!!

I remember the last time I saw her.
The one that you look like.
She was my queen, my best friend.
The one I loved holding close to me.
The one I loved talking to for hours.

I don't know who you are.
You look like her, you act like her.
You talk like her, but you are not her!!

The one thing I wish for above all else
Is that I want the woman I love back!
The one that made me smile.
The one that I can talk to for hours.
I don't recognize you!
You say we are two of a kind,
That you understand how I feel.
I don't think you totally fathom it

I understand your emotions,
Which is why I choose to stand strong.
Even when I feel so hurt by you.
But when it comes to you
Understanding what I'm feeling
It's like a disease you do not want to be infected by.

I can't help where I am right now
Especially now that it's all at the surface
This is where I am right now.
Trying to stand strong
So you don't see me totally crack.

But I will be man enough to say
I will take my share of the blame
Because I allowed my feelings to get the best of me
I allowed my heart to act rather than my mind.