Pain

I think of this pain as a big orb,
I could stab it and smash it,
The pain would start oozing out,
Then flowing faster and faster releasing,
The hatreds and resentments and anger,
That came with the pain,
That started fresh at first then building,
Bringing no joy to the day ,
That has sunk in my bones,invisible enemy,
And brought on irrationality to the mind,
I would faint with the drop in pain,
The stealer of my sleep,
I would be reborn and look at the world,
With the sun shining on my face,
I would praise God with fevor,
I would love all my fellow beings as I did before,
The flashes of self destruction burned away,
Oh the joy,the love,
This will be my day one again.