Pain after losing a child

The pain of losing a child is the worst thing there could ever be,  I don't no how others feel I can only speak for me. I lost my 2nd son by a miscarriage at five months it all went by so fast way I was brought up u had to just put in in the past, he didn't make it to this world sent upstairs first class, no memories to reminiss of my little angel boy. I already had two kids then came my son John who helped me through a little pain then came son number 4 our little jordy bayne I only had one girl she became my best friend so close we all grew to become my darling babies my number 1 growing through the years so much laughter n so much tears. My boys growing up so fine I'm so proud of those boys of mine, my darling baby girl brought so much to this world. So much love to share but now she's not there. She died at only 21 everything I worked for now  is gone, my little Rock who held me tall is now not here and I think  will fall . She was always there for me, every single day now my beautiful girl has been taken away. I now feel this pain inside now so real i wont even see her get to be a bride, this pain is slowly killing me from within   . I feel my heart will soon give in, there's  too many memories linger in my head, I never thought to loose my girl only left with her memories now instead.I'm so lost without you I don't no what to do feel so empty now inside my beautiful babaloo,I can't believe she is gone my little sunshine, my best friend. My sons they miss her too but no how broken I am now without you .  I need to wait till my turn to pass till I'm reunited with you but I feel so sad and alone now u are gone I feel my heart will eventually give in because I now pine each day for you xxx