Pain(friend or foe)
Pain
Like 0 Pin it 1You have entered my life, without being cordially ask,
Proud of your ever existence, not even dawning a mask.
You have sat at my table and whereby, did not even eat,
Sometimes I lie in bed and find myself, not able to sleep.
You said we were friends, when you knocked at my door,
I felt again you had misled me and I can’t see you anymore.
Like a lover you call to me and in return, seductively I respond,
In a relationship, I thought was short term but you instead,came to bond.
I knew of you, when all was blue, yet, never knew your name,
You’ve done this before, yes I can tell, for you it’s no new game.
Day into night and night into day, you like a lion, came with a roar,
I came to you like a man, with the intent, not to see you any more.
As I turned to leave, from your presence and hastily walk away,
I caught glimpse, of that familiar stare, as I turn to hear you say.
I’m in control, of this you say and you have no real power,
When the meds wear off, I’ll see you and it won’t be over an hour.
Little did he realize you see, that old routine, by me had changed,
And who was he, to question me, could he be emphatically deranged.
Well the hour pass, the medicine last, I saw him pacing the floor,
Looked at him, gave the thumbs up, I am sure it hurts to the core.
Three to four hours had gone, he had now, finally left me alone,
Like a dog, that finally came home, I had discarded my old bone.
Your visit cut short, like a coward, you came and without a fight,
Like a wolf in sheep’s clothing, a mockery, you slipped into the night.
Jim
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Highly emotional as well as philosophical. Although dispassionate yet piercing job.
Ravindra so nice to hear from you and thank you for the comment,hope all is well with you...
Jim
Hello (Lady) Shah,
Been thinking about you and hoped and wished that all was o.k. Miss you terribly,
the cosmos is a lonely place without you and Canada best lay out the red carpet
for you when you arrive. Tina sends her best wishes and prayers that your final
destination will be a most welcomed one, especially for such an ambassador size heart that you carry within you.It feels as though I have lost on e of my more dearest of friends when all is
silent and we know nothing of your journey although as soon as I see your
inserted comment, I am like a kid in a candy store let loose to have a field
day on whatever sweets I desire....There’s a place on Cosmo Funnel that has
been crying for the return of one of its most loveable, compassionate and heartwarming
individuals anyone could ever have the pleasure of meeting and in our hearts (Tina’s'
and mine) you will forever be immortalized you and Shirley P. both...You two
were like book ends on a shelf of life. When I needed to think clear and with
logic during Tina’s trial and tribulations and her needing prayers the most,
the both of you corralled,not only the both of our needs, you remained in tune
with us through the true intentions of the heart and kept in contact
until normality was once again in order, you kept us secure on the shelf without
the threat of failure and again we always cherish, you two, for this...Remain
safe and remember we are on this trip with you in mind and soul and will not
rest until you have made it, once again home safe and sound...
Jimmy/Tina
I definitely feel this poem, perfectly written.
What Up Morris??
Appreciate the shout out but "hey," you're the one batting a hundred, everything you release, is in the greens, (as) written in my book
Regards,
Jim
thanks again man.
sorry I haven't been on allot. been too buisy playing video games. Your poems are pure gold. I say cosmo funnel should do live performances with allot of these poems. It would be awsome to hear the poems that people post on here. espessaelly yours bro.
signed Russ.
ps, shah, come visit cloverdale, maybe we can hang out some time.
You have a very good heart James and you are well missed... What you speak says volumes, (EF hutton) better watch out because when you speak, you have an audience listening...Hope the band situation find its way of happening for, bet you are star material waiting to be discovered....
Take Care Partner,
Jim
Very good, Jim
I truly understand. Pain - friend or foe? In my life, even if he takes a brief sabbatical, he always returns-
now I make him work for me. I don't mean to sound petty- but sometimes I envy the innocent. My earliest memories were of my older brother violently abusing me (not sexual- black eyes, bloody nose and lips, bruised face and body), lost my mom at 15, my dad at 18, survived homelessness, battled drug addiction and been to prison 3 times (total of 10 years- drug cases). "Still, I rise" It is the triumph of the spirit. I don't entertain debates about faith. I don't believe- I know. I don't write for fun- I'm on a mission. Thank you for calling me partner. May I call you brother?
James Whaley
P.S.- These past couple of days I haven't been able to post. When I tap "Post yours"- it scrolls to the contest page. Help? Also, how do I upload a photo?
James,
You my man are a true survivor and when I say I take my hat off, hey it sits off for you as we speak...What doesn't kill us makes us stronger and you I am sure, can attest and or a product of those words in deed...I wonna tell you a little story I don't think I have told to many besides those of my family...It will be a short one, although in reality it was long and I wish it never even had to have existed.......While in California I had purchased a (30) apartments in this complex area and someone from the surrounding neighborhood came on the property and as I was making a few rounds adjusting things here and there and talking with other tenants, he decided he was going to strong arm one of my elderly tenants whom was in his (70)'s. I wasn’t sure what was transpiring but could see on the elderly gentleman’s face that he did not appreciate what was being asked or told of him and was too scared to respond negatively towards the demands, (that I later found to be the case), of the trespasser and he through facial expressions was attempting to gather my attention. So as I walked over to the area of his location, I could here this guy telling the elderly man that he was going to take him to trade a stolen VCR he had in his possession to his connections location are otherwise he was going to stab him, at the time I did not see a displayed knife but to just mutter words of that magnitude to anyone young or old was a threat to anyone’s well being. So I asked this individual what was going on and his response was go mind your own business, so I figured I tried to approach this in a reasonable manner and he wanted to take it to another level, so my response was, that you brought your business to my attention when you started harassing my tenants, so now I guess you makes this my business now and the best thing to do is just leave the property, he stared at me and began to leave muttering under breath words unable to make out...About an hour later I heard a loud bang and looked outside of my office window and observed that the knuckle head decided to return and was jumping up and down on the elderly gentleman’s car hood, he then picked up a tricycle that was placed near the car and tried to break the car window on the passenger side but to no avail and the elderly man was inside of his apartment, thankfully, so as I began to step from the office out to the location of the car and the trespasser, the elderly man seeing me I assume, felt assurance of his safety and before I was in the area he decided to exit his apartment and when the trespasser heard the door about to open, he stood beside the door near the hinges and the door connect and as soon as he stepped from his room the trespasser grabbed him from behind and started walking with him towards the older gentleman’s car, he,(the trespasser) still not noticing me approaching, pulled from his trench coat a three foot long machete and forced the older man’s head on the hood with the intentions of decapitating this man as he finally responded to my yells at him, he pushed the older man on the ground ,(unharmed) and started towards me, so still trying to talk some form of sense in this guy’s head I continued to inform him to leave the property while he was still able to. Unfortunately he heard or comprehended nothing I was saying to him and kept walking up on me with his machete. So I as I kept distance between he and I as he continued forward towards me with his weapon allowed him to get no longer that close so when he reached within (3) feet and decided to raise the weapon with the intentions of swinging it, I came from my pocket with a (38) and as he began to swing, i still continued trying to dissuade him and as he begin to come down with the weapon he was met with the resistance of a bullet to hi fore head. The sheriff’s department had been called during the initial jumping up and down on the car but no one responded in time enough to prevent that final consequences. As the Law enforcement arrived on the scene everything in the world seemed like it had stopped moving making sounds or anything else. It was as if I was in the twilight zone where all time itself had cease to exist and I was the only person in this world with this individual lying at the base of me near my feet and all I could say was I warned you to leave, I had did all I could to get this unresponsive (now), intruder, to respond to my earlier request, which he did not and now the results were as they were and it now was to late too. .As the Law enforcement arrived on the scene, he approached with his lights off, thinking that this individual was still walking around with his weapon in hand but as he, (the officer) approached me sitting outside on the window seal, waiting for their arrival, I informed him that the person he was called for was lying on the ground near the elderly mans vehicle. (5 to 7) days later they considered it justifiable homicide, self defense......... That is one reason I try my hardest to be as humble as possible, to make up for the life I did not want to take but when I sat and recollect on the whole matter, I came to the conclusion, that I did all I could to save this man’s life and he did all he could to get it taken or he was going to take someone else’s…….There isn’t a day that goes by, that I don’t have flashes of this occurrence and truly regret that it resulted in his demise….I think you were the only person I have indulged this to and now everyone know and if ever you are engaged in any situation in life I truly hope it doesn’t end up like this one……So i hope all that reads this, realize i had no other alternative and had exhausted all verbals....i hope this on no body and it isn't something easily forgotten....
Stay Cool,
Jimmy
James,
So to make that long story short, i too am on a mission to preach practices of being humble and not allow a situation, that can be talked out, not end up as a matter such as this,when that trigger is pulled and bullet is discharged, it's hitting what ever is in front of it, by accidnet, as we read so often in the news paper or hear about on the news or by an unfortunate choice, such as in this case...If capable walk away, because you may not have a gun but your opposition just might... And this feeling isn't one you really wonna live with for the rest of your life...i did not and still don't........A choice had to be made......And i hope no one looks down on the decision that had to be made, i am still the same person now,that you all met before this story was indulged...,
Take Care,
Jim
jimm
it is very nice. keep at it.be happy buddy. be in touch bye.
My Dear friend (Rochish),
I sincerely thank you for your kind words and it is people such as yourself, that urges an individual whom feels tonight is the only time you have left on this earth and with no faith in hand, to realize there is a tomorrow, and that we all have to believe in something in life, other wise we find ourselves just floating through it, without any means of guidance are physical and mental support.Your words give them reasons to stand tall, poke that chest out a bit, uplift their head and continue to make your mark in life...Those that are true friends will be those that will understand and will have viewed the complete situation, (the full forest, not just the tree in front to obscure their view) and place themselves in your shoes and then make their determination, whether there was a different choice that could have been made and should have been.Part of the story, that was left out was the fact that this guy was so inundated on crystal meth and heroin and just a week before, after he had been released from incarceration and was back at his old tricks of breaking in houses, beating up the elderly and right before he had made his way back to my property, he had just been ran from an elderly ladies house ,whereby he pushed his way in, went from every room in the house, (including her attic) and stole some of her property.When he had made it back down to mine, i did not realize that he had already went to one of the female tenants apartment and forced his way in stating he was gonna take him a shower, not realizing her male friend was in the apartment and forced him out,Whereby then he made his way down to the situation that unfortunately took his life.The reason he did not brandish his machete with the first couple in their apartment, was because he had told another tenant, that he was coming back to (shank) the old man and then i was told me....So i did what i had to do and it had to end in the manner in which it did, because he would have came back ,pushing his luck and at times i wasn't on the property and i did not want him showing up with my wife there by herself, in fact the main reason i responded when i did, was because my wife was coming out the door behind me without my knowledge and as i turned to push her from the scene,he rose the weapon and attempted to swing but was met with the resistance of the bullet, causing his blood to spray on her, causing her to freak out a little and what woman wouldn't .This was not the first time he had accosted the tenants, took what he wanted than left, it was just that this time turned out to be his last.....
Thanks again for your encouragenent,
Jimmy
This is absolutely Inspirational Jimmy ..Love Liz.
Thanks Elizabeth..I have confided in you a lot of past experiences, through our messages and this is just one more of those bumps in the world, that i wish no one else has to face....It really bothers me no have took the life of another and if i could turn back the hands of time, (with his violent history), sad to say it may still have ended up with the same results...He was the type where, if he was shot in the leg arm or any where else besides where he was shot, he would have came back and harmed my wife.........and then i would have had to be placed in jail...for his safety, because i would have searched for him for the rest of my life and when he was found, that one bullet would have been the least i would have done to him, so i could take no chances and dealt with the matter, in the only manner that was unfortunately appropriate...
Keep in touch,
Jim
This is beautiful I like it a lot
Thanks Ange, means a whole lot coming from you....
Take Care,
Jim
You welcome, anytime.