Panic black

 Do not speak its name
It grabs you by the hair and pulls
You under a Water
Down a darkness
Where fish never come
A winter
With no snow 
The trees gray and brown

A twisting of the spirit
Your bell bloated and soundless

Breathe in 
And for a moment
It leaves 
to come back stronger

It burns in your head
While frosting your toes
You wonder how the world still goes on and no one notes
Because you are damaged by breathing

Your mind seems to be
Attacking you soul

And worse than loneliness
Or anger
You are in danger

Why why why
All around you people are living without a thought of fear
Their souls aren't for stripping bloodied bare
Their voices have appetite
Watch them eat
Their food is not meant for you

You can't be still
Hell is calling

Something is wrong 

I am gone some
Where inside I must find someplace to hide
I didn't plan this
It's not part of the deal
To feel
And feel and feel
This stark flinching
Winding and pinching
The adrenilen ride