Part of a journey called life...

     Sometimes I feel lost in this big world, where is my place? Who will love me? So many unanswered questions, so many emotions being felt... Definately have to live this life I've been dealt.

    I always used to wonder why people held so tightly to memories, even of long ago. With all the thought I've put into it, I figured it's because they are the one true things that never change. It's bittersweet, when the days seem gloomy and I can't see the light, I think of my sweet memories, never changing, always the same... The same smile, the same laugh, the same sarcastic answers, even help you with the math.

    Life has a way of throwing curve balls, you just have to learn how to dodge, move a little faster. Love the people who love you. Do for the people who do for you. But when your heart is as big as all outdoors, and you find the need to help the ones in trouble... You seem to lose yourself. Yes, life still confuses me, hurts me that I can't make everything ok for everybody. The feeling of being overwhelmed ... I feel like running away at times.. To an island, surrounded by water, a peaceful breeze, fruit trees and coconut milk. A paradise for me, but then comes the confusion sets in again... Is it ok for me to be happy, or is it selfish?  I have others to think of, others who need me... I feel pulled in so many directions, all I want is to be happy, content, peaceful and loved. Is that too much to ask? We need money to survive, but not in abundance... To love and be loved, to see the smiles on people's faces because of me...food, water and shelter, a small circle of real friends, family and sanity. I just want a "happily ever after".  I just want.... I just want....world peace and love among the people... The anger and hatred are past... And those are emotions I'm in no hurry to feel again.