Passionate (From Miles Away)

Connections deepen. Text's even. Message are a blessing and when she be talking to me she gives me things I can use words to sketch and mess with. She's a reward from my ex's. She is exactly what I get from passing all of my lessons. She's exactly what I pray for God thank you for the blessing. But she cometh with something not new. A catch 22.  We can have a connection but it's from a far, lord that was so rude. I ain't mad at you. Every thing happens for a reason. Just don't send her my way and give me something to believe in. Cause I see in. Her what I believe is. What's worth it and I think she's perfect. No more hurting. No more putting on shows that's only curtains. No more overworking for the things that just ain't working. No more putting myself in a position of having to be put in the care of the urgent. No more of me being added to the list of hoes that these hoe's be out here purging. I can't go back but they want me to. I just wish I could find the part they hold me to. To get it there's no amount of pain they won't put me through. Treating mirrors like x-rays barely know what I'm looking through. Pieces of me picken to eat. Riding my wave is like having a bus in the ocean they saved you a seat. Wonder what happen if I down sized to only you. You know who you are. I didn't think you would be this cool. Even from a far. We know we have our separate ways but they doesn't separate us and how we are. I imagine the vision you gave. I think that's why we're divided to be safe. I trust too much when I've done too less. A new look for me to be showered by the old and still give my best. Passionate.