Personal DIElemma

I'm a headless horseman into forced inter course and supports abortion
Caught up in contradiction
 whenever convictions begin conflicting with the absurdities of my addictions
 my Auruas missin its mission
 rotten reflections observed looking through an imperfect prism 
mouth that won't stop trying to talk to ears refusing to listen
 fingers crossed praying like a sinning Christian
 peaceful prophecies and positive predictions were laid to rest 
the moment my conscious mind took its first breath 
saw the line between right and wrong and just left
 entirely altering the alignment of my unstable entities energy
 conforming only to my personal progression
 questions accumulate 
when attempting to rationalize a biased ratio of love and hate
 I swear they're related
 personally demonstrated
ask anyone I've ever dated 
mentally Ill undiagnosed pathetic patient
oversaturated by parasites inside a sick host 
Got all that I want and usually more then I need
Still it seems I'm perversely motivated by greed 
What's left when it all runs out 
Will the man in the moon continue to smile when the sun goes out
Someday I'll be extinguished like cigs I put out 
Burn out 
Limping around one legged
Cause the other ones stuck in my mouth 
Alzheimerish cause I always forget
Either generic genetics
Or consistent blunts in my lips