It's Not That Bad

Why me God damn it 

Can no longer stand it 

I'm cold and hollow 

Today sucked and so will tomorrow 

Looking for answers at the bottom of a bottle 

A drunken disorderly dipshit 

Feeling dysfunctional 

Life lost any trace of faith 

Falling behind 

Tired of trying 

Still lying but nobody's buying 

The endless bullshit I spit 

I quit 

Forfeit 

Victory is no longer valuable 

Tearing apart my twisted family 

Casually I shrug it off 

Beyond my control 

Is all anyone is told 

The cards I hold aren't in my favor so I fold

Destroying destiny 

Aggressively assaulting peaceful protestors 

Avoiding answers like they have leprosy 

Gonna retaliate if oppressors keep testing me

At a standstill 

Dropping an anvil on an anthill 

Snorting second chances 

Up a damn bill

Proof is in plain sight 

Empty integrity 

Why can't I let it be 

Wreaking havoc in a hammock 

So stuck 

Who gives a fuck

Can't recall the last time I was in luck 

No buzz is enough 

Showered in substances 

Head hurts can't complete complete sentences 

Building barricades 

Surrounded by defensive fences 

Lost my two cents along the way 

All that matters is now grey

To busy to kneel and pray 

Doesn't matter 

God's a facade anyway 

Pandora's box is where I keep my socks

Illustrations of an ill identity 

Absent minded moron is how the world will remember me 

Diabolical demon 

Day dreaming 

Shattered reflections reflected in roaring rivers

Chances at advances are severed by arthritic fingers holding scissors 

Slutty skank

I'll never forgive her 

Imprisoned my heart and kept it for ransom 

Cheating chance 

Consequences I can't stand em

Why is it all so fucking random 

Who's running this operation 

Conspiracy theories appear to be all fake 

Wait till I break 

Not even cause I'm odd

An endless pile of shit in front of me 

Picking it up is my job 

Impossible to make ends meet 

Ghost behind a sheet

What's sleep 

Atrocious osmosis 

Breaking the basics