Possession

Sometimes you think I'm a demon erasing the daughter you raised 
Well I don't mean to disappoint mom, 
But I was never here in the first place 

You say I've kissed agony 
And I've made the shadows my best friends
Well I don't mean to make you sad 
But i was never innocent 

You think I'm possessing 
A daughter that you love 
Well I hate to break your heart 
But that's the way I've grown up 

I was never peaceful 
At least not inside 
Always the one to carry the world 
Just under a smile to hide 

I never liked us
This thing we call a family 
Cause I know with love 
Comes the tears I bleed 

So you yell and ask me
"What is it I've done?" 
Sweet mother it was never you 
And I'm not the only one 

I am not a demon 
It's just you've never seen my truth 
Opening my truest color's 
Which I don't know how to use

You tell me I'm so different 
From the way you look into my face 
Well I don't mean to make you tired 
But it was always me anyways 

I was never 'her'
And I hope to god I'll never be you 
I don't know the way the wind blows 
But I've always known who's who 

Growing up with long sleeves 
Not to hide the scars 
To hide the emotion I was carrying 
To hide the tattooed heart 

I never wanted to make you cry 
I never wanted to make you yell 
I only wanted to let you know 
I'm really a walking Hell

No one can save me 
Salvation is a lie 
So now I will surrender 
To the monster I've taught inside 

I will just let my eyes water up in your way 
I will tell you, she was never there 
You were always too late 

So now I'll look into the stars 
And I'll think of all of you 
You were the reasons I tried 
But now I've spilt the truth 

I'm sorry I should leave now 
Good bye my heart and soul 
I love you all to pieces 
But this is not my home