Possession

Sometimes you think I'm a demon erasing the daughter you raised
Well I don't mean to disappoint mom,
But I was never here in the first place
You say I've kissed agony
And I've made the shadows my best friends
Well I don't mean to make you sad
But i was never innocent
You think I'm possessing
A daughter that you love
Well I hate to break your heart
But that's the way I've grown up
I was never peaceful
At least not inside
Always the one to carry the world
Just under a smile to hide
I never liked us
This thing we call a family
Cause I know with love
Comes the tears I bleed
So you yell and ask me
"What is it I've done?"
Sweet mother it was never you
And I'm not the only one
I am not a demon
It's just you've never seen my truth
Opening my truest color's
Which I don't know how to use
You tell me I'm so different
From the way you look into my face
Well I don't mean to make you tired
But it was always me anyways
I was never 'her'
And I hope to god I'll never be you
I don't know the way the wind blows
But I've always known who's who
Growing up with long sleeves
Not to hide the scars
To hide the emotion I was carrying
To hide the tattooed heart
I never wanted to make you cry
I never wanted to make you yell
I only wanted to let you know
I'm really a walking Hell
No one can save me
Salvation is a lie
So now I will surrender
To the monster I've taught inside
I will just let my eyes water up in your way
I will tell you, she was never there
You were always too late
So now I'll look into the stars
And I'll think of all of you
You were the reasons I tried
But now I've spilt the truth
I'm sorry I should leave now
Good bye my heart and soul
I love you all to pieces
But this is not my home

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Comments
so sad and yet so beautiful