Prisoner of believe

As I watch and stare into disbelief
My hands get untied
Freedom is at my grasp at last

As I wipe away tears of sadness
Happiness get's embraced
Being a part of my life again

My skin starts to shiver
As I step into a world unknown
What seems to be on it's coldest winter night

No sounds to be heard
No voices to be shared
So weird that even the wind became silent aswell

Did life just stopped moving on for me
Did life just stopped moving on without me
Feeling like a frozen image of the past stuck inside the present

Running towards places I once knew
While fear enters the heart
To do what's right and take a step back
To leave the doors that once stood open, unopent
and just the same for it's windows

To be afraid confronting those who I let down
To be guilty of telling lies within lies
Punished for betraying people's trust in me

My body is shaking so hard
Like it wants to shut itself down
Nasty thoughts are reflecting in my mind
as my physical appearance tends to vomit
as my mental appearance plans to create a new imprisonment

Wondering why all of this is happening to me
even after years passed by
to be set free, but not to feel free

To be living like a ghost
in a town that has no place for me
To be living like a person
whose life had been consumed by sins

With tail between my legs
with a stonecold face
I look towards the concrete floor
as I walk back in acceptance

Crawling back into the hole
that eventually with time became my home
as my hands get tied up again
freedom fled

Ironic to believe that the outside world
once abandoned,
would be the better place for him, than
the inside world that became a part
of the person he once wanted to be