PUDDLE OF HELPLESSNESS

Controlled by an inner child's fear

I spent a lifetime on the run

I blamed my inner fearful self

For all that SHE had done

It was HER excuses, HER anger

HER fear and sadness, too

I was controlled by HER emotions

There was nothing "I" could do

It was HER pain, HER denial

HER little victim pout

I blamed my inner wounded self

For how my life turned out

It was HER fearful voice of reasoning

HER thoughts and feelings, too

SHE kept me frozen inside with fear

As SHE clung to me, like glue

SHE stood in a puddle of helplessness

SHE stood there, staring up at me

I didn't know how to re-parent her

Or take responsibility

But I learned when I choose to do nothing

That I'm still making a choice

That my indecisive thoughts are heard

Though I use a passive voice

I'm paying the consequences

For the years I chose to forget

For not taking responsibility

For living my life in regret
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