Quiet Disaster

I woke up this morning

With jumbled ramblings bouncing

Fiercely in my head

The circus that is my mind

I lose focus

I scramble to pull myself together

Hopeless

I try to sort through all the mess

That voice, it still echo’s in my head

Silently yelling at myself

Get it together I think

I sit

I breath in, I breath out

I scream quietly

No one will hear me anyway

Why

Why do I repeat these mistake’s

Why

Why do you mistreat my love

You are the devil in disguise

Stealing my heart, taking my soul

Leave

You are no longer wanted here

I push you away, farther this time

Yet you still continue to come back

I give into you, only to yet again

Watch you walk away

One day I will be strong

One day I will be brave

And one day you will have to watch me

Walk away