The rage of her

I hate her
I have to see her
Nothing to save my rage inside...

And now I see it all
Why would family do this to me
My kids and theirs not needing this
My brother in tears
Her still there to raise my family

The husband that saw her
Took to her
And now we are here with this awkward moment
In time I must forgive

She will be there watching, waiting
For the day I snap inside and make her mine
You should have known me
You waisted my years believing in you
My kids adore you and all I see is
The knife I want to use to erase your face
From my mind

Watch you as you scream in pain
Feel how I feel inside
8yrs you take my family and use us
Now to take the most precious piece
My heart and take it

I will get it back
I own me, my mind, my soul
The rage I feel will always be present
The lies your wrote, you told
You gave a false hope
Never realising I am bigger than you
My family is a rock you won't ever blast

So please give me a reason
A reason to hurt you
The way you hurt me
Just let me take a piece of you
To ruin, to smear, to keep clear
I own my family
My brother being worth more than watching you bleed
Although the pleasure inside to see you shatter
The way my mind imagines
One thing always clear
Those kids are part of me
Always will be, nothing will take that away
You will never be my family
Till the day you decide to repent your sins
Your lies, the words you wrote

Just accept and face what you did
Don't lie to me
Forgiveness is hard to give when you refuse
To choose whats right
Admit that you lost.
I won, I found out you messed up
Instead the lies sit and make my rage
Bleed inside so much I can picture cutting your face from our lives

I can't let my rage inside
Pain inside
Bleed inside
Or keep me from my truth
Things that happen are lessons
The reasons unknown to me
Yet to be revealed when the rage subsides
To open doors of peace inside my heart....