Realisation.

A huge part of my life had been taken away but The people around me never knew that i had a Verbal Gun held to my Head, Every night i'd drift into a Gaze wandering when the trigger would be pulled and when the time came it weren't even Loaded.

These Four walls Surrounding me are and always will be my blank expression, My anxiety spiralled out of control one reason being you were never treating me as your son, Thinking about everything at once sucks the air from my lungs, to the point where i Lose the ability to Breathe, i was forced to be every other kind of person except the real me.

i was so proud of myself when i got that distinction in my first year, why is it that when i did good you were everywhere but here, I guess your passion were to shout at us and create fear, You never Cared about any of us and that became very clear, any Nightmare you have Just know that i'll always be near, Love is all i have now and it's sincere.

if i knew you were going to be this way i'd of walked Years ago, yes i grew up around your Violent tendencies but i refuse to be Your clone, Getting rid of you means i can Let my barriers down and Break my heart of stone, This time around i am glad you left us to fend on our own, Because Now we're happy Living in this home sweet home.