Reality

I had similar feelings Gwen , So I realized I had to summarize all the bad past chapters into a summary I could like , then when working on rewriting the future chapters I’m not scared of the past ones . I think my old poetry profile had to much bad blood and that’s ultimately why I gave it up , We will never forget our past but we can accept it through acknowledging it in a way we can realize it wasn’t all our fault for some maybe none of it is . If you can do this then ripping out the new chapters won’t leave you with exposing past ones you don’t like :) , You’re not terrible , the fact you keep rewriting future ones shows your desire to want to be perfect or grow in a way you are proud of so that’s a good sign but keep in mind no one is ever perfect so sometimes we can be guilty of being to hard on ourselves . It’s tough to write new chapters until we have came to peace with the summary of old ones :/ 
xoxo SW

Yes we do , that part can be easier said than done but definitely necessary , thanks for shinning your light on this through your support .:)