reality or realm

I sleep to get out of my mind out of my daily life but I go deeper and deeper as I shift the sands of time . 
Less reality matters I’m losing myself to dreaming but forgotten ghostly clatters .
I wake then I await for the hours to tick by until I can lay my head for my nightly date . 
I can spill my stress into this dark place deep inside my sleeping head all while my mind and body are dreaming dread . 
So it’s a choice do I watch close with open eyes or do I rest and sleep as the depression of life passes me by . 
Will I find magic in a realm where realities awareness is lost to a perpetual curse or spell . 
Will I wake up one day with a smile leaving behind the frown that’s continued my emotional drown . 
Is there more life in sleep then on the open side of eyes 
Should I keep this fruitless path with no positive replies or should I wake with faith that leads positive light . 
Life is lost in a dream so I keep diving trying to find anything of more means . 
Fading into night becoming more dream and less me . 
The more I sleep the more I bleed my best memories . 
The more I speak the more I feel the leaves fall from my tree . 
The more I wake and weep the more my conscience struggles to breathe . 
The more I scape the see the less time I get to spend truly being completely me . 
Consumed by the lazy road of forgotten shows  dreams breaking into my dark to dim my glow . 
A curse to live in the dark where dreams shadow reality and hide life the true spark