Reap and sow

Cut and go
stop the flow 
plant the seed
done the deed 
unfeeling bastardry
my butchery 
homegrown nihilism 
living in the prism
fallacy in circles 
hear the vultures
is there a He She
emptiness--let me be
finding belief
leaking like a sieve 
carrying my fire 
or standing on my pyre
is my obsession real 
maybe a silent funeral 
can you feel the burn
teardrops at every turn 
feel the earth crumble 
into every crack a crimson trickle
hear my story? 
haunting wails I bury
I've become a ghost 
when hope needed it utmost 
no, I cannot deny 
or simplify 
simplify 
what is Godsend?
Heavensent?
Lucifer on a mind-bend
a soul marred 
never hide what is scarred
the memories I am
I am what I am
forever be what I am. 

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