Recollections and Reflections

Remembering the days past memories

Haunting the world inside of me

I see the times of happiness

Clinging to my childhood forgiveness

Then as I age I see the darkness

It rushes inside as the years pass on

To consume my entire life

I try to forget the miseries

They haunt me forever nagging me

My brothers, sister, and parents alike

There to remind me of what I aspired to be

The failings so apparent to me

Yet my family says I succeed

To inspire them through there own painful miseries

The addictions, the cancer, the kidney disease

Just some of those awful memories I aspired to cease

Only to float on in the time capsul of my brain so I can see

The suicides, murderous crimes, rapes, elections, and wasted times witnessed

Inside my mind it doesn't fade

It doesn't wane

It only keeps me sane

I learned from them

The ones I love, the ones I loved

How to grow within to see the pain

Earn and gain

From the lessons they unintentionally gave me in pain

Now I see the past recollect inside

Cocooned and masked inside my mind

To set me forth right and true to be the best I can be and

Waste not

Want not

Just be me and to keep on keeping on righteously devoted to learning hope is not a mystery

But inside every soul who wants it to be a part of each memory

The good the bad the ugly is in us all

Tucked away we truly do know it all, only if we want to see

Want to know

Want to be

A productive member to our own society in our memories......

"Hope, faith, kindness, love, and happiness mean nothing without misery, pain, death, hurt, and hate"--Alicia Richmond