Reflection

Reflection

I could have loved you for the rest of time
We married and you promised you’d be mine
I took your word as true
I believed it when you said ‘I love you’

You said you meant it at the time
Only then were you really mine
You held my hand
I thought you could understand

What love really is
What it means to fall in deep
And in so falling keep promises
Find solace in friendship, intimacy, laughter

Grow as each others partner
Love like it was our invention
Feelings beyond our comprehension
But you could not

You only see things in black and white
You could not love me despite my flaws
You could not love me again as you had before
When you adored my whole self

You made me feel miles above anyone else
In your eyes
You reflected my good heart back to me
And I fell in love with what I wanted to see

Now I see you were empty and dark
There was no real love to find in your heart
The light in your eyes was just part of the reflection
You had no other intention

But to tear out my soul
And swap it for your black hole
The emptiness is yours alone
I think I have always known.