Reflection Perfection

I can almost touch you
Miss reflection in the mirror
but though I desperately long
to find something to hold on
You decide to dissapear
I see you almost
in a future tense
but not quite there yet
I feel like there was a time
where we have already met
but don't take my word for it
I'm looking through the looking glass
but see no Alice
Just when I'm about to pass
I see a face of michivious malice
The sight of it is faded and not very strong
truth of the matter
I've been the mad hatter
all along.
Working on his art
that ultimatly made him mad
But in the end he's dillusionally
happy with the only thing he had.
Am I the same?
I do get lost in it so much
that bits of my soul
decorate it as such
But I'm not quite yet
to where I think I should be
there's a dissconnect
An invincible wall made by yours truly
made out of glass
and an image I worship
of a better version of me-
who's like me but with a tune up
Better at existing
Better at life
Better at words
Better with strife
Better with actions
Better with lead
Better to look at
Better to need
And try as I might I can't break through
I take a hammer and a knife
but no marks are made
And I don't know what to do
The world screams "be better"
when its nothing but a dirty hypocrit
because its only getting worse
and I've had it up to here with it.
No I can't be that reflection you so wish me to be
even if I tried
If I told you once I could be perfect
then sorry but...I lied.
I will strive to be the reflection
My king can be proud of
not something that merely looks good
but one that matters
Stab me with forgiveness
Until I shatter
then he'll pick up the pieces
and gleam them until they're clear
I am not a dirty puddle
I was solidified as a sun shining earth quacking chandler
My heart and my art are one in the same
My art is the glass my heart is the frame
my craft has been re crafted
And I needed to be reminded
the mirror that I'm looking into
is simply where my mind has been
The real me is not an image or something copied
for my wick as been lit
and nothing can stop me
I am the real thing- ME in actuality
so no need to dream anymore of what
"I SHOULD be."
There's no need to dream about what should be in the mirror
The most important thing is reality
and reality is right here
divine decree
dipped in serendipity
is inevitability
My intertwined destiny

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