remember

and I remember you telling me 
that you don't want me to cry 
and I promise you that I wont 
but deep down you knows I lie 

and I remember you telling me 
that I have to be strong inside 
and I remember the moment 
that you close your eyes and died 

and I remember when they carry you 
standing in the rain soaking wet 
as I fumbled with a lighter 
trying to light a cigarette 

and I remember the flowers 
as they cover you in the ground 
every one wishing me well 
but I couldn't hear a sound 

I remember her parents standing there 
and the grieve on your face 
for so many years they disowned you 
for loving a man of a different race 

and I remember reaching out a hand 
trying to find something to say 
and I remember they look at me 
and without a word walk away 

I remember the first time we meet 
down by the Staten island mall 
when you got a flat tire 
and didn't know who to call 

and I remember our first date 
and asking you to be my wife 
and i remember taking you to Trinidad 
to show my parents the woman to share my life 

and I remember you dancing 
to steel pan and calypso 
drinking coconut water 
sucking sugar cane and ripe mangoes 

and when you got sick 
and what the doctor said to me 
I remember our fairly tales 
turns to a horror story 

you made me swear 
to be strong and carry on 
now I'm so weak 
so weak since you been gone 

I remember every moment 
every moment spend with you 
the only thing I don't remember 
is how to live without you 

I cant live without you 
so I wont even try 
I will stay by your grave 
until the day I die