Reminiscence

On some nights, it is easy to forget you.
On others, I can't help but think about how warm you were.
How comfortable it was to bury my face in your neck.
How soothing it was to listen to the beat of your heart-
I had prayed for moments like this.
To be this close.
To be held this tight.
On some nights, I'm far too busy to even remember you.
Too distracted to wonder.
Too preoccupied to care.
I wish tonight was one of those nights.
Oh how easy it was to fall asleep on your chest.
How safe I thought I was wrapped in your arms.
How the butterflies swirled inside me when you played with my hair.
You were a dream I never wanted to wake from.
Stuck somewhere between cloud 9 and heaven.
Anywhere with you was bliss.
On some nights, when I close my eyes, I can smell you.
It's hard to escape the feeling you used to give me.
To ignore the craving.
It's even harder to ignore every text.
To deny every call.
To block every attempt you make to contact me.
My brain won't let me forget your voice.
Your demons visit me at night.
They talk to mine, and beg for me to come back.
To forgive.
To love you again just one more time.
Oh my love, how I miss the pain. 
-TW