Robins death row

Here i am sitting up at night alone with thoughts racing through my head
Am I good enough,am I happy,or am I better off dead
Sometimes I can't control  these thoughts that take over my mind
To others it seems so silly,but to me my sanity is on the line
All of these insecurities are driving me insane 
The only way to un make them stop is to surrender to the pain
I don't know what is wrong with me,I know I'm not ok
People tell me that I'm fine,well isn't that what they always say
Me,I know better,I'm so far from normal 
But no one understands that my mind is running it's own carnival 
Here I am in the spotlight, spectators all around 
Wondering how I will entertain them will I smile, laugh, scream, or frown
i am here for their amusement, they came to see a show
Should I release my inner demons do they really want to know 
All of a sudden they realize that their answer is NO
They're all screaming to get out but it's too late  
You are all getting what you came for now feel the true hate
Men being mauled by demons, children scream in fear 
One of my hate filled demons bends down and wipes the child's tear 
He smiles his wicked smile at her, I know what comes next
He rips her head off her shoulders and grins triumptly at his best
So, welcome,  welcome one and all to all of my horrid schemes 
I hope you all get a good look at what truely haunts my dreams
This is my home, my hell, my personal haven of despair 
Oh please, don't even pretend like you care 
You better leave while you can, for me, it's much too late 
Hurry now, they are drooling as they watch your hands shake 
My demons are hungry for more of your fear 
Run, don't look back, or they will suck your soul out of your ears
Goodbye you all,thanks for stopping by
I said as i shut the door in my mind and began to cry
A part of me wanted them not to go, it gets pretty lonely in my mind, I call it Robins Death Row