rose colored glasses

Cheating? 
No he couldn't be
Lying? 
It's not true!
Rose colored glasses 
I seem to wear
For the words 
"I love you"
Little fibs I tell myself
Stories to make it ok
This is how i manage
To make it threw the day
But he doesn't know I see him
Or maybe he doesn't care
I don't want to think that way
It just isn't fair. 
I pour my heart into an empty glass
Give him everything I have
The only thing I get in return
Is "sorrys" and "I shouldn't haves".
See,  behind my collared glasses
Everything is fine
I can pretend I don't see the truth
Written between the lines
But when I take my glasses off
It's when I need the pills
Because everything is all so dark
And it's a struggle against the wills
I cry my self to sleep most nights
Even if it's inside my head
Does he not see the pain I'm in, 
How I wish that I were dead?
I already know the answer to that
Even though I wish I'd not
With everything he's doing 
He can't see the flak I've caught.
Defending him is pointless now
Everyone knows his ways
So I cling to my rose colored glasses
And pray that he will change