Ruin

Sometimes I feel life gets the best of me
And it's all I can do to not give up the rest of me
It's like I'm that unique flavor and their after that recipe
I can't help but fill the low when I'm at the bottom
But I shake those haters off and I do my best to spot em
But even with a solid roof the rain sometimes leaks through
And patching that hole is the best I can do
It is like I'm living in my own world with reality pushing in on me
It's like a horde of zombies at my front door, I feel the intensity
Held to this world by the weight of its gravity
When I just want to fly off and soar through the galaxy
I feel like this world was just not ment for me
I grew up with few good friends and most are imaginary
I don't know why I am 
The way I am
The son of Stan
And it's hard trusting any man
It's like finding a diamond in the sand
I got my drawbridge up but I paint a few windows 
But for you to look in, what happens out there I don't want to know
My mind has mutated to a whole other level
I'm alone in my darkness I don't reach out I revel
At The Bottom of a hole and I just reach for a shovel
I try and act like I'm fine and not twisted
I try to act like I'm normal no misfit
When god tossed out sanity I must of missed it
I don't know how to live I just go through the motions
Surrounded by sharks and I'm lost in the ocean
Trying to find some shelter what a wonderful notion
I care to much to properly fit
I said what I said and I done it that's it
Like a powder keg fitting to blow
Trapped in my own mind with no where to go
I don't feel like I sold it my soul is all that I own
Been in wonderland to long someone sits on my throne
Mellonchully king and I'm forever alone
Tormented but yes I hide it well
To humble my friend my ego don't swell
I just hope one day my story they'll tell
When I've reached the end and I've rung on that bell
Spiders and snakes are all that I see
The forms of the demons that are coming for me
I'm a good person but my hands are not clean
Wake up in the morning with blood on my sheets
Karma she hunts me down
And when she catches me I'll have no ground 
Of course I will beg I am only human
But like all things I will eventually ruin

By LukeCoomer (c)