sad feelings

From across the hudson river
you can feel the cold wind chill
Its so cold ,you have to keep the heat on
And brace yourself for a very high gas bill

I'm standing on a staten island ferry
But my mind is with a girl from Iraq
I cant stop myself from thinking of her 
But I know that ship had sailed and its not coming back

Its been two years since we broke up
You would think its time I should haved moved on
But this feelings just keeps coming back
Whenever I thought I was over her and this feelings was gone

I told her that I miss her
And she didnt say a word or reply
So i told her how i feel one more time
I just had to give it one more try

" You dont know whats it like " i said
To love someone like you"
No " You would never know what its like
The silent hell that I'm going through

When I was small I heard when you grow up 
That one day your  heart will be broken
And I use to laught at the words that was spoken
Thinking how can heart a be broken

A heart is not made of stone or glass
So how could it be shattered or cause you any pain
So I never thought twice about those things
So I would go outside and continue playing

Then I grew up and stepped on a bridge
A bridge called love that was to long to cross
And I got stuck somewhere in the middle
And then my innocense was lost

I try to fight this feelings
But my love was to strong
how do you stop the heart from hurting
And wanting to be where it dont belong

I know that I'm a fool a big big fool
But sometimes we all are
A fool to have my foot on the ground
But still reaching for the unreachable star

I wish I was a little boy again
When my mom and dad was always there
If I falled down or hurt myself
They would take care of me till the pain disappears

But i'm grown up now 
And I'm in the middle of a battle field
No more illusions or cobwebs in my mind
This fight for my hearts survival is for real

I know that she wont come back
But still inside of me feels knotted like twine
I try my best to loose the knots
With barcadi,black label and red wine

I dont know where shes now
Or if shes with someone new
But I still I love her so much
To stop loving someone is never easy to do

I know I will keep missing her
But I won't contact her any more
And I wished her the best
And for happiness to knock on her door

The ferry reach to manhattan now
So I will just walk around and have lunch
And this weekend is mothers day
So i will pick some roses and 
send my mother a bunch