Second Chance

I once lived life boundless and fearless 
Not caring of others, nor caring what they thought of me 
It made everything seem so simple in this blind manner
I let drinking and drugs control all emotional outlet 

What I thought were feelings was only numbness 
Awhile it seemed I forgot how to feel
A shell of wasteful life form 
Laughing at pain to smile at misery

Thinking I was a man of stone
Not letting another fill my heart with warmth 
Keeping a distance to those who tried like they were my kryptonite
Then one beautiful day along with others who believe my mind set

Drinking the sunny day away 
Ready to head home from swimming
We all got in the jeep with our drunken demise 
Luckily had enough desire to live and buckle up 

Shortly afterwards driving flirting with destruction
Suddenly we swerved to miss a huge truck
In a instant popping a back tire, and flipping the rag doll like jeep four times
Coming to a stop as it slide on it's top 

When it stopped I opened my dirt and glass filled eyes 
It seemed to all happen in a blind 
All of us hanging upside down dangling in our set belts
As we unclipped​ them we fall on our faces 

Crawling from the wreak undamaged 
I look at the carnage, and felt death's embrace gently let go
The ambulance screaming sirens echo in my ears
Their helping hand not need by one of us 

They look at us with shame smelling alcohol breath to say
 "Your all are lucky to be alive" 
As those words replayed in my head 
I look up to the sky in the first time in a long while

Quietly thanking God 
I realized from that moment this is my second chance to do better, and leave ignorance behind
Now as the days drift by 
I try my best to help those who share my past vision 

I plant small seed of hope with words of incouragement 
To cut the strings of the devil that's​ controlling them as a puppeteer, and to follow Christ freely passing on love for others 
Simply by lending my ears 
They open stuffed​ down bottled of haunting emotions

Relieving their heavy burdens 
Giving light in their darkest hour 
I ask only help as I helped them 
Passing​ the power of inspiration, and healing with camaraderie