see me alive

Last night, I stayed up crying.
wanting to die.
surprised that I didn't take my own life.
Surprised that someone can effect me so much.
To try to kill myself, over stupid stuff.

I was put here for a reason,
why would I take that away?
I don't want God mad at me.
I want him to hear me.
Hear me when I cry.
I want him to see me.
See me alive.