Self Contained

When you look at me, you assume I am fine
But inside I’m beating on the glass behind my own eyes
This body is a prison, some kind of divine disguise 
There is no way out, I’m trapped inside my mind

Reality is harder to understand
Never being sure what it takes to be a man
Confusion and chaos a caving constant
My growing insanity a glowing monument
I can’t clearly see through this fog of nonsense
Inside I riot with my imaginary cell mates
Outside I simply do what it takes
To live day to day and pretend I’m okay
I’m worried I’m losing the battle
A shepherd who threw down his cane to be one with the cattle
All I can do is incoherently babble
Wavering in the wind on this tightrope I clumsily straddle 
I’m beat up and bleeding, screaming for assistance
I outright can’t understand existence
I’ve looked too far inward and have gone the distance 
But what I see scares me and I’m losing my persistence 
Wishing to give up my sentients
Why should I continue to attempt to understand
I’m nothing special, just another man

LukeCoomer ©