Selfish Desires

Call me selfish 
but when we took 
our new love
off life’s shelf 
I expected it 
to be perfect 
but as we built it 
it became apparent 
we weren’t just missing 
one or two pieces 
but rather many more 
Was it out my fears 
from previous years 
or was it just lust 
convincing the both of us 
that the love making 
romantic weekends 
and one on ones 
would be enough to fix 
all the issues 
we were facing 
amidst a mixed family 
with 2 different generations 
of confused people 
all with our own issues 
the biggest one being 
TRUST 
But call me selfish 
because I still desire 
the love regardless 
the pain it costs 
because a second with her 
I’d gladly exchange for a year 
of my life versus a lifetime 
without her love