Shadow of your self

You've been a shadow of yourself for far too long, to the point you're now just a silhouette of "who" you once was.

Still the master controls your strings, making you feel that there's no way to escape. Even if the possibility arises, what strengths are left for you to give and stand by it.

You sit and wait for when the better is good, not seeing that on the other side of this there is so much more than better or good.

This happens to us all, when we can't see the trees through the leaves. No one can make us see what we don't know or unable too admit, only time will tell if you can ever get to it.

It's impossible to protect you from what your still doing to your self, but now I think I've learned that's not what my job entails.

It's to be ready for when you find the strength from within, not to hold you accountable for the past, as it should stay where it is. My job is to help put back the colour that you have lost, so you can get out those beautiful wings that I know you still have.

I've been talking with you in my head for as long as I can remember, wishing that things would just get better. As I so deeply miss the mum I try to remember, maybe that's how it will stay for now and ever.

The hope I have is you'll find your way with a map that I drew, with a true understanding for a new beginning for you.

From your youngest child now all grown up, with the mileage under his belt to show forgiveness and love.