Shine a light

As  twilight is  devoured by the encroaching night,
I gaze up at the silver freckled sky with eyes straining
to see beyond the universe,
To see into the infinite void and find answers…
Answers to questions I have yet to ask- yet to formulate..yet to know.
There is a jeopardy to overthinking,
or searching for the solace to uncertainty
There is a vacuum within me that requires replenishing.
I have failed…..I no longer feel Him near.
God bestowed life to me and whatever I have become,
through life, should be my bequest to Him..
But I am lost …with no aim or path
and flounder in the dark.
what gift have I but my inadequacy?
There is no question why I am deserted…I know this now…
I expect tenebrosity to envelop me, obscure me,
leave me within this  crepuscule.
My loathsome eye is drawn to the dark, the unending dark...
And there before me, softly colouring the blackness with their subtle hues,
and weaving a kalidescope of crackling light, I see my answer…..
fireflies,... scattering their luminescence throughout the gloom,
lighting a fractured path through the night.
Showing me a way to shine in  my own glory
irrespective of the enormity of the dark surround.
I know now, with no doubt, no fear and a hope renewed
That God... my God,.... is a firefly.