Short Excitement (Drink and drive)

I want to move out

Start my life afresh

Have my own space

Meet people

Have my freedom

Go out as I please

Buy my own things

Enjoy my life

Yes I’m only 18

But I’m smart

I’m responsible, I’m wiser

I have a rich man

I have reliable friends

I’m employed, contract yes

Mom I can make it

Make you proud

Take care of me

Believe me

Mother disagreed

True friends advised me to yet

Have patience, save

Do not rush but I ignored even to listen

I moved out

My life all great

New friends loved me

Visiting everyday

Hanged out together,

My sugar daddy spoiling me, pimping

Sleeping over, making me feel like a woman

Yes I’m his only

He bought me furniture

Kitchen filled with heavenly food

Parties and chilling sessions

With wines and excitement all Las Vegas

My space all big and welcoming

6 months later

Job lost,

Boyfriend dumped me

Friends disappeared

Rent needed, debts hunt me

Now I remember

I should’ve not rushed

I should’ve listened

If only….

Living in the world of

What ifs

Should’ve and would’ve

All wishful thinking

My mind was caught up in a

Rushed excitement over a new job

New probation contract

New rich lover, was I the only one for him?

I figured… results opened a danger zone world for me

Now I’m sick and dying

No cure, I’m a mess

Mother forgive me

I….. I…. moment of silence

Only tears and my cry spoke for me

I surrender….

To be continued….