The side of me you dont see...

I try hard to keep you out, but keep you close. I try to let you see i love you. But it never works that way. When you tell me you love me i feel like i am the most important thing in the world. They way you kiss my neck makes me smile and shine like a star in the night sky. When are lips meet my eyes tell you everything my mouth cant. You stand tall beside me every time i am scared. When my tears start to run down my face you wipe them away and tell me it will all be ok. But on the inside the side you dont see, i know it wont be ok... I know we wont make it. I know that you will leave like all the others and i know that i cant let you in. I want to but some thing deep in side wont let me open up and let you see how much you mean to me... or how you make me feel!! But right know i have you and thats all i need... one day i really hope that your love will break me and let me show you how much i love you back. The me you dont see it the cuz of this love and some day i want you to meet it. But today is not that day so dont leave me alone and just give me time to show you i am trying to let you in. I love you!! Both sides of me loves me more then you think. Dont give up but dont give in!