Sinking Ship

I am asleep in my mind
Half dead in my soul 
Everything i was, i deployed inside you
Taken by suprise
I let myself die
Lost in your eyes
Convinced by your lies

Im ashamed i didnt see
What you were doing to me
Its embarresing to be the one
Who fell so willingly
Swept away by your looks
Un-dressed by your touch
Degraded with every kiss
Diminished by your love

A woman i was
A coward i became
Blaming the world
For the sins of my shame

who am i to smile
When you stole that from me
Disguised in metal armour
You let my heart bleed

I fought for your opinion
I drowned in your sea
I jumped when you jumped
But you wouldnt save me
Out here alone
In the cold depths of your heart
Dying in-complete, dying to play a part

Where am i to go
Who am i to play
Disgusted with myself, by letting myself stay
Under valued in my bed
You taking pride between my legs
Using me to your advantage
Forcing your ways into my head

Hurting me with invisible hands
Pushing me aside
Wanting to be yours 
But finding walls that block your mind
So here we are again
At the bottom of  a dark, deep blue abyss
Where i am just a ghost
And our love a sinking ship