Slave

I love, I smile 
I talk, I chat 
I laugh with those who love to laugh 
My heart is so big it comes out of my chest 
even though my heart
it is depressed 
The smile I give each and everyday 
Is being torn apart slowly by fear and decay 
It pulls me closer to its wicked arms and holds me close while it feeds the harm 
It whispers to me softly "This is the end, give up now"
As it takes all my strength 
and pins me to the ground 
Screaming for help I begin to cry 
It takes over me quickly
like a thief in the night 
robbing me of what I once thought I had 
and now holding my life wrapped in its hands
I scream, I break 
I fear, I cry 
I'm a slave to myself
I'm a slave to my mind