SLEEP PARALYSIS

Fingerprints and silhouettes linger in this room;

Memories cast an eerie glow when exposed by this new moon.

Fragrances of unity and passion kiss the wind;

Nostalgia brings your face to mind as the loneliness creeps in. 

The scents upon the pillows, the cold and empty sheets;

Igniting sleep paralysis which I have yet to defeat.

I scream behind a sutured mouth, no sound can tear the thread;

I beg my body to escape but I'm helpless on the bed.

Stuck within a nightmare, yet my eyes won't close;

Trapped inside a labyrinth where no sane mind can go.

Twisting, turning violently, with a demon on my chest;

Some black force of Lucifer that will never let me rest.

There's no one here to wake me, I must fight this on my own;

Clawing my way to the Light, to the comfort of my Home.

Tears and prayers paint my face, God please omit this dream!

Terminate the walk through Hell! Obliterate this scene!

At one time he lied next to me, his rescue never failed;

Pulling me from heinous dreams, visions of My Hell.

But he no longer wakes me, nor saves me from my sleep;

His voice has faded with the night, his presence, obsolete.

Why are you a memory?? Why did you let me slip?

You once held me so close to you, now you've loosened your grip!

Now I fight this battle, a battle in my mind;

A war of deadly silence, the words you left behind.

Vanishing abruptly, were you ever really here?

Or were you a ghost within my dreams, an image not so clear?

Did I create you in my mind as a place to run and hide?

A handsome face of fiction, a Safe Haven inside?

Did you ever have a beating heart? Did you ever take a breath?

Were you just an illustration to save me from my Death?

Did your pure eyes lock with mine? Did your bare chest surge with heat?

Were you ever really waiting there to wake me from my sleep?

Yes, you must've rested here, your signature's engraved!

Don't insult my intelligence by confusion so depraved!

I KNOW that you existed here! Your heart beat next to mine!

I KNOW I felt your warm embrace, my own perfected design!

Yes! You woke me from my dreams! You didn't let me fall!

This life I'm living without you is the logic of it all!

Yes, my theory must be right! You were ALWAYS real!

The true nightmare is your absence, the poignant pain I feel!

Reality was flesh and blood adorned with loving arms;

A shelter of protection that I've somehow disembarked.

When you left me with your ghost, the haunting dreams began;

Depriving me of sanity, a maze that never ends.

Within the many jagged walls I seek to find your face;

I search fervently and desperately amidst this dreadful place.

Yet all I see is my reflection, a girl without a soul;

Void of her own beating heart, depleted of control.

A gorgeous, broken image, cracked porcelain of perfection;

The widow of a perfect smile, now poisoned with Infection.

Contagious laughter once was shared, now the memories leave scars;

Wounds that flesh can never heal, can't be hidden in the dark.

For, the dark is where Nostalgia rests, where She reveals her fangs;

Sinking teeth of vicious truth deep into my veins.

Injecting venom of a loss that I never will grasp;

A venom much too toxic, summoning relapse.

Another drug infused with lies, a needle of neglect;

Serum of betrayal, much too bitter to digest.

But the truth is that I'm paralyzed, a victim of my slumber;

As memories dance within the dark, Nostalgia pulls me under...

--Kelly Gregory-- ❤❤❤