Sleepless Nights

It's so hard to close my eyes at night, I know my dreams will take me right back to that fight, you know the one I'm speaking of, where you tried to end my life, it haunts me, more like a nightmare, now instead of closing my eyes, I sit up looking at the wall in a blank stare, if by chance I do fall asleep, I know I'll wake up frozen in fear, screaming for anybody, but no one will hear, how could you do this to me, i thought you loved me, how can you look in the mirror, I picked myself up that day, right where you left me on the cold floor, bloody and bruised, I turned to God and asked him to help me close that door, the one where I loved you, throw away the key and let me start again, bring back a heart that is new, one without scars from being abused, one I don't wear on my sleeve, one that is strong enough not to be used, one that doesn't drop when I hear your name, one that doesn't flinch at the thought of the pain, one where you no longer exist, and he did just that, you are nothing now but a faint memory, one that only haunts me in my dreams, one day I will rid you completely, but until then sleepless nights for me it is.