Sleepless nights again

It is dark inside tonight as I try to sleep through the trials and errors of my day today
Lonely with the monsters that lurk around the halls of my home
The shadows and gloom just looming around me as I lie here awake
My heart and anxiety a blanket to warm me yet keep me so cold pounding away in shame
I am wasting away as the night goes on waiting away for the blissful dreams to take me away
I can't understand the impending doom my room has appealed to me tonight
My little girl asleep downstairs so calmly and safely dreaming of the days to come
My husband exhausted and sleeping blissfully unaware I am scared as can be
Another night I fight the demons inside, the monsters of my imagination come to light
The baby inside awake and alive a gentle reminder I am not alone
I am here to live another day to make it through for the life I must grow
I am stronger than I know
Keeping my soul alive is whats hard as can be
My only enemy is in my head
The mental messing with emotions and time
One day soon I will have me a child that relies on my calm
Now I must quietly lay here and adjust to my loud brain 
As it sits here and talks me to oblivion
Working me up inside and out to see things that are not truly there
So quietly I pray and close my eyes
to tune out the night and try to just drift away till another day and night steals my thoughts away....