Smiles Up

(Smiles Up)

For so long ive been in pain,
It felt like I was slowly going insane
A smile I couldn't maintain, 
Slow depression, loneliness felt like
A shot of cocaine running through my veins.

I felt like the world was profane,
Society is a hurricane of games,
Now I cant complain,
I picked my pen back up, 
Wrote a few words, and was able to
Sustain, a flame, here to take aim
Looking up at the blue sky
My smiles up,
Nobody can hurt me now, 
my happiness is in-humane.

The heart wants what the heart wants,
Now im calling the shots,
Stomach twisted and turned in knots,
Poetry venom  stacked,  my poisonous darts.

Walking down the street
Everything in slow motion,
In a blink of my eyes, now 
Time is suddenly frozen.
Life is a sea full of emotion
Full of love, hate and different potions. 

The poets devotion is to fix the broken,
With explosion, 
Of words, to help ease the pain
Scrape the erosion, 
Unspoken, for all the souls
Whomever felt their identity was stolen,
Know your beautiful,  
dark days, some come out golden.

It is so hard being the nice guy,
So quiet and so shy,
Left to rot, without a goodbye,
Girls call you ugly, stupid, rejection and the feeling 
Of being fully crucified.
Im not here to horrify, 
Simply to just imply that karma loves you
Now my smiles up, heart big and strong
Adrenaline jacked up, so fully alive!