This is Something I Need to Say

I'm angry and I know it 
Bad part is only my heart knows it 
Good part is I won't deny it 
But I'll hide it 
Lash out later and start all over 

This is something I need to say 

Deep rejection of existence
Cuz showing compassion is resisting 
And I'll no longer stop to show respect or even listen 
Since the shit that I feel is obviously to much for you to fit in
When only time can heal brokenness
Empty promises 
Constant missing 
And you're always on a mission
Doing nothing 
You say it's business 
But you and I both know it isn't

This is something I need to say 

And since this is a repeating thing 
I'll pretend with you and play this imagination game
And it's sad cuz there's always been something missing 
Maybe I'll always be angry 
And search for what isn't 
And deep down I might love you
But it's hard to say 
And I hate to say it because it feels so fake 
And when it comes to the moments I have to put on face
I'll grit my teeth 
Put on a smile and you'll hear me say
You're the best I love you dad 

... If only I could relate 
This is something I need to say