Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder,
how this came to be.

All these thoughts,
and emotions,
crowding my brain,
and taking my energy.

Did they truly,
come from me?
Or maybe something
else put this curse
on me.

Either way,
I struggle to
fight it.
Every day
is a battle,
that feels like 
live or die.

I try my best,
to pass this test,
but sometimes 
I'm tempted to let go.

Cause I don't 
understand why I must
fight for my life,
why I must suffer.

It's hard to cope with something,
that is difficult to understand...